I am going to try the whole calorie counting deal. I figured that if I want to be at 145 that it will take from now until December 21, 2014. I will need to eat 1,377 calories per day and exercise moderately.
I can do that!
Today I will be counting the calories that go into my favorite food choices.
Fage with granola and honey
Hummus, akmak and vegies
Breakfast smoothies
Turkey sandwich on whole wheat with avocado
Tuna with spread on akmak
Power greens with chicken breast, tomatoes and avocados
My new exercise schedule will be treadmill walk/run Tuesday morning, Thursday morning and Saturdays. I may try to get out for an evening walk with Ben Monday, Wednesday nights.
I am having a hard time with Easter candy in the house. Those little Whopper Robin Eggs are so stinkin' good. I finished the Talenti ice cream last night. Not feeling very proud of myself right now.
NEW DAY!
Taking boys to school, home to have breakfast and work until 10:30am and then it is my time. The possibilities are endless!
Tuesday, April 8, 2014
Saturday, April 5, 2014
Super happy with things......
We have had a grey cloud over our house since December 19, 2013. A dog ran in front of my husband's car as he was coming home from Christmas shopping. The dog was off leash (big no-no in our town, county, state, country, WORLD) and on the opposite side of the street from the owner. Ya, a big WTF! It has been a horrible experience complete with visits by the aggressive dog owner to our home, phone calls, insurance claims, letters in the mail, small claims court appearances, appearance before sitting judges and finally, REDEMPTION! We won the case on Friday at 10:10am. The dog, unfortunately, died from the injuries. But, none of this was our fault. If the owner had had the dog on a leash and had been a responsible dog-owner, the dog would still be alive.
I feel like the sun came out today after a really, really really long storm. It has affected how we feel about our home, our front yard, our neighborhood (oh ya, they live across the creek from us) and our town. I am constantly thinking that I will run into them at the store or open my front door to their old, slothy faces. We need to heal now.
I weighed in on Thursday and even though I was finishing up my period, I was down .3 lbs. I was shocked. I have had a few oops this week. I have not exercised (spring break for the boys) in ages. I really want to want to get out in the garage and run. I will have a chance Monday night and then Tuesday morning. I will Wednesday night and then Thursday morning. I will Friday night. I will. I will.
Last night I ate a single serving of ice cream. A single serving. I enjoyed it. I put the container back in the freezer. I was satisfied. That felt good.
Today, I ate a hybrid burrito at Freebirds in Ventura. It was vegetarian and I was satisfied. That felt good.
I am taking joy in the small things. Eating controlled portions and being satisfied. It feels good.
This week I pledge to eat more power green mix. I pledge to eat more good fruit and vegetables and less Akmak crackers and hummus.
I feel good about myself right now. I caught a glimpse of myself in the reflection of the frozen food section at the grocery store. I liked how I looked. My stomach has been reduced and my ass was not sticking out like usual. My face is looking thinner and my hair is feeling thick and healthy. My skin will always be an issue for me. I think my body has a problem with dairy and fatty foods like peanut butter. Crap.
I have found a great product for my body. Kevita probiotic drinks. I love the green drink. $2.29/each at Vons this week. $1.50/1 coupons make each one $.79! Usually $2.99 each.
My period was very mild. I did not have the super bitch show up. It was not as heavy and bloaty and angry as before. I could really tell the difference. I am hopeful that this is a change that will continue.
I need to drink more water. I need to drink more water. Thinking about checking into reverse osmosis options. All of these empty water bottles makes me feel bad.
I feel like the sun came out today after a really, really really long storm. It has affected how we feel about our home, our front yard, our neighborhood (oh ya, they live across the creek from us) and our town. I am constantly thinking that I will run into them at the store or open my front door to their old, slothy faces. We need to heal now.
I weighed in on Thursday and even though I was finishing up my period, I was down .3 lbs. I was shocked. I have had a few oops this week. I have not exercised (spring break for the boys) in ages. I really want to want to get out in the garage and run. I will have a chance Monday night and then Tuesday morning. I will Wednesday night and then Thursday morning. I will Friday night. I will. I will.
Last night I ate a single serving of ice cream. A single serving. I enjoyed it. I put the container back in the freezer. I was satisfied. That felt good.
Today, I ate a hybrid burrito at Freebirds in Ventura. It was vegetarian and I was satisfied. That felt good.
I am taking joy in the small things. Eating controlled portions and being satisfied. It feels good.
This week I pledge to eat more power green mix. I pledge to eat more good fruit and vegetables and less Akmak crackers and hummus.
I feel good about myself right now. I caught a glimpse of myself in the reflection of the frozen food section at the grocery store. I liked how I looked. My stomach has been reduced and my ass was not sticking out like usual. My face is looking thinner and my hair is feeling thick and healthy. My skin will always be an issue for me. I think my body has a problem with dairy and fatty foods like peanut butter. Crap.
I have found a great product for my body. Kevita probiotic drinks. I love the green drink. $2.29/each at Vons this week. $1.50/1 coupons make each one $.79! Usually $2.99 each.
My period was very mild. I did not have the super bitch show up. It was not as heavy and bloaty and angry as before. I could really tell the difference. I am hopeful that this is a change that will continue.
I need to drink more water. I need to drink more water. Thinking about checking into reverse osmosis options. All of these empty water bottles makes me feel bad.
Monday, March 31, 2014
Not letting it prevent me from moving forward.....
Started yesterday, March 30, 2014. It was more mild than the last which was more mild than the prior one. This time I am prepared. I went to WinCo (my favorite place for clean ingredients) and bought almonds and whole wheat flour. I made my clean bread last night. I stuck to the plan today and yesterday for the most part. I had a diet coke last night.....but, GOLLY it was yummy!
I know so much about myself from this clean eating plan. I know that when I miss a meal/snack I doom myself. I, literally, crash and burn and blow my whole day of good intentions with one missed meal/snack.
As I was typing, I realized my snack time had approached. So, I grabbed some almonds and a string cheese stick. Now, I am back to normal.
We went to LV 1 1/2 weeks ago. I had a hard time. I expected to eat clean the entire time. It was hard. I struggled and took a few days off. But, came back home and, for the most part, was right back on.
I am still hovering around 205.5. I am trying really hard for this weeks weigh-in.
Fingers crossed.
I know so much about myself from this clean eating plan. I know that when I miss a meal/snack I doom myself. I, literally, crash and burn and blow my whole day of good intentions with one missed meal/snack.
As I was typing, I realized my snack time had approached. So, I grabbed some almonds and a string cheese stick. Now, I am back to normal.
We went to LV 1 1/2 weeks ago. I had a hard time. I expected to eat clean the entire time. It was hard. I struggled and took a few days off. But, came back home and, for the most part, was right back on.
I am still hovering around 205.5. I am trying really hard for this weeks weigh-in.
Fingers crossed.
Tuesday, March 4, 2014
I need to learn how to not let my period ruin me.
I started yesterday. I was fine yesterday. I got up today and just knew I did not have it in me to clean eat today. I screwed off and ate like crap until dinner. Let's see.....I was like that hungry little caterpillar today.....
First I finished off an entire bag of Hawaiian Potato Chips with Mango and Habenero
Next, I finished off the bag of chocolate teddy grahams
Next, I opened the bag of sour jelly beans that I was saving for Easter baskets
Next, I ate a handful of left over Christmas candy cane kisses even tho they taste like crap
At least I this point I was intelligent enough to stop (only because I ate all of the crap in the house) and have almond butter with Akmak crackers
My period sabotages me in such a huge way. I did not feel guilty or bad. I was just this crazy-eyed maniac seeking out crap. Thank God I did not go in the garage and dig thru the back up stock. Ya, that would have been just too crazy.
Geez.
I have told myself I will NOT weigh in this week. I need a few days to be bloated and gross and feeling like the treadmill is satan. I will be back in good spirits by Thursday afternoon.
I have all of the food in this house that I need to clean eat. I just could not think of one thing that would have sustained my craze.
Tomorrow is a new day. I will be back to my sane self and I will move forward.
My goal: 200 by Vegas. March 20th, 2014. That will be HUGE!
First I finished off an entire bag of Hawaiian Potato Chips with Mango and Habenero
Next, I finished off the bag of chocolate teddy grahams
Next, I opened the bag of sour jelly beans that I was saving for Easter baskets
Next, I ate a handful of left over Christmas candy cane kisses even tho they taste like crap
At least I this point I was intelligent enough to stop (only because I ate all of the crap in the house) and have almond butter with Akmak crackers
My period sabotages me in such a huge way. I did not feel guilty or bad. I was just this crazy-eyed maniac seeking out crap. Thank God I did not go in the garage and dig thru the back up stock. Ya, that would have been just too crazy.
Geez.
I have told myself I will NOT weigh in this week. I need a few days to be bloated and gross and feeling like the treadmill is satan. I will be back in good spirits by Thursday afternoon.
I have all of the food in this house that I need to clean eat. I just could not think of one thing that would have sustained my craze.
Tomorrow is a new day. I will be back to my sane self and I will move forward.
My goal: 200 by Vegas. March 20th, 2014. That will be HUGE!
Saturday, March 1, 2014
One cheat meal in the books
Tonight we celebrated my husbands birthday with his side. I made a devils food cake with homemade chocolate buttercream frosting. It was amazing, aside from the fact that my oven died and I had to bake the cake in a neighbors oven that was not as good as my oven. Bit on the odd-shaped size.
Tonight was my first cheat meal. I was a bit nervous about it. My in-laws were making chicken mole and spanish rice with beans. Fat, additives, bad carbs, fat and a side of fat. I had a piece of chicken, a small spoonful of rice with the beans. It was good. But, it was not to-die-for good. I had been dreaming of this meal for 8 weeks and it was....okay. I did not eat too much. I did not eat a helping bigger than my regular portion. I was happy with that. The birthday cake was wonderful and I had a small tbsp. size of Neapolitan ice cream. Just perfect.
And, my first cheat meal is in the books.
I am excited to get back on the plan in the morning. I am really looking forward to my healthy food being back.
I am approaching 200 lbs. and I am really happy. I am so resolved to the fact that I must exercise once each day. I like the feeling I get when I am all finished. On Friday I did (6-7) 2-2 intervals. That is a huge increase for me. I say 6-7 because I can't remember if I did 6 or 7.
We are traveling to Las Vegas on March 20th-23rd. We will be staying at the Station Casino and eating the buffet a few times. I am trying to prepare myself for that time. I will be doing it exactly by the books until we leave. When I am on vacation I must allow myself to be off and yet stay diligent about portions. I think the casino has a fitness room and I plan on working out daily, if time allows.
I need to figure out how to make my new life fit into my life. I know that sounds weird, but it is true. I cannot worry about the interruptions in my steady ride. I must move with the flow and allow interruptions to not be roadblocks.
Tonight was my first cheat meal. I was a bit nervous about it. My in-laws were making chicken mole and spanish rice with beans. Fat, additives, bad carbs, fat and a side of fat. I had a piece of chicken, a small spoonful of rice with the beans. It was good. But, it was not to-die-for good. I had been dreaming of this meal for 8 weeks and it was....okay. I did not eat too much. I did not eat a helping bigger than my regular portion. I was happy with that. The birthday cake was wonderful and I had a small tbsp. size of Neapolitan ice cream. Just perfect.
And, my first cheat meal is in the books.
I am excited to get back on the plan in the morning. I am really looking forward to my healthy food being back.
I am approaching 200 lbs. and I am really happy. I am so resolved to the fact that I must exercise once each day. I like the feeling I get when I am all finished. On Friday I did (6-7) 2-2 intervals. That is a huge increase for me. I say 6-7 because I can't remember if I did 6 or 7.
We are traveling to Las Vegas on March 20th-23rd. We will be staying at the Station Casino and eating the buffet a few times. I am trying to prepare myself for that time. I will be doing it exactly by the books until we leave. When I am on vacation I must allow myself to be off and yet stay diligent about portions. I think the casino has a fitness room and I plan on working out daily, if time allows.
I need to figure out how to make my new life fit into my life. I know that sounds weird, but it is true. I cannot worry about the interruptions in my steady ride. I must move with the flow and allow interruptions to not be roadblocks.
Thursday, February 27, 2014
Period is approaching.....
Just realized my period is coming. I started 1/30 last month. So, March 2nd approximately this time. I cannot let it get me. I cannot let my mind think that I need crap when I am on my period.
Fight the urge to purge.
Fight the urge to purge.
Who would have thought!?!?!
So, you know all those people that say if you eat right and exercise consistently that you will lose weight? Ya, they were right. Bummer. The last 5 days I have eaten exactly by the rules and I have exercised my butt off every evening or morning on the treadmill. And.........I lost 3 lbs. this week!!!
2/27/2014 - 206.9 lbs.
I have a cheat meal coming up Saturday night. Me is a bit scared. But, Saturday breakfast and lunch I will be really behaved. But, Saturday night, I am having chicken mole and birthday cake. My meals are not big these days. I eat pretty small portions. I will behave but I will enjoy. I am most excited about the cake we are making for Dave's birthday. Chocolate cake with homemade chocolate buttercream frosting. Yum!
On the treadmill I have been doing 2-2 intervals of running-walking. I am up to 4 intervals. I don't like to run. I don't like my boobs bouncing all over the place. I don't like to sweat. I don't like it at all. But, I do it and it paid off this week. Dave mentioned, once the time change approaches, going out to the garage together to workout. I am hoping to be in a better way stamina-wise by then.
Today was the first day I felt the weightloss. As of today, I am down 20 lbs. Kind of amazing that it has been 2 months and it has been successful. I have never succeeded at this stuff. I usually start out strong and give up after 3 weeks. I usually give up when the initial weightloss tapers off. I can't do it this time. I must keep doing it and knowing that this is my new way of living.
Oh, and organic protein powder bites ass.
2/27/2014 - 206.9 lbs.
I have a cheat meal coming up Saturday night. Me is a bit scared. But, Saturday breakfast and lunch I will be really behaved. But, Saturday night, I am having chicken mole and birthday cake. My meals are not big these days. I eat pretty small portions. I will behave but I will enjoy. I am most excited about the cake we are making for Dave's birthday. Chocolate cake with homemade chocolate buttercream frosting. Yum!
On the treadmill I have been doing 2-2 intervals of running-walking. I am up to 4 intervals. I don't like to run. I don't like my boobs bouncing all over the place. I don't like to sweat. I don't like it at all. But, I do it and it paid off this week. Dave mentioned, once the time change approaches, going out to the garage together to workout. I am hoping to be in a better way stamina-wise by then.
Today was the first day I felt the weightloss. As of today, I am down 20 lbs. Kind of amazing that it has been 2 months and it has been successful. I have never succeeded at this stuff. I usually start out strong and give up after 3 weeks. I usually give up when the initial weightloss tapers off. I can't do it this time. I must keep doing it and knowing that this is my new way of living.
Oh, and organic protein powder bites ass.
Wednesday, February 19, 2014
Still discovering things about myself everyday
My days are long. My days are emotionally exhausting. My days are long. Blah, blah, blah. Everyone has long days. Everyone has things in their lives that deplete them daily. I am no different. I just can't let those things dictate the food I put in my mouth or the physical activity I perform or don't perform daily.
Exercise if the best thing for you when you are stressed or worried. Why can I not jump on that treadmill? What is preventing me from jumping on that treadmill and burning my fat off my body? Why? What am I afraid of? Well, I hate to sweat and I hate to huff and puff. So what?!?
Tomorrow, I vow to get my ass on that treadmill and walk/run/jog for 30 minutes.
Okay, over with that stuff.
I discovered Pichuberrys. Oh, my, goodness. They are amazing. Got them free with my Vons card. Best free fruit ever!
I weigh in in 1 day. I am a bit nervous this week. I feel bloaty and slow this week.
On Monday I made banana bread, whole wheat bread and granola. I love my granola. It tastes like oatmeal cookies. Yum.
Get your ass on that treadmill tomorrow. You will feel so much better after you have done it. M-W-F and a hike on the weekend. It is very doable.
Exercise if the best thing for you when you are stressed or worried. Why can I not jump on that treadmill? What is preventing me from jumping on that treadmill and burning my fat off my body? Why? What am I afraid of? Well, I hate to sweat and I hate to huff and puff. So what?!?
Tomorrow, I vow to get my ass on that treadmill and walk/run/jog for 30 minutes.
Okay, over with that stuff.
I discovered Pichuberrys. Oh, my, goodness. They are amazing. Got them free with my Vons card. Best free fruit ever!
I weigh in in 1 day. I am a bit nervous this week. I feel bloaty and slow this week.
On Monday I made banana bread, whole wheat bread and granola. I love my granola. It tastes like oatmeal cookies. Yum.
Get your ass on that treadmill tomorrow. You will feel so much better after you have done it. M-W-F and a hike on the weekend. It is very doable.
Saturday, February 15, 2014
Tough week
I am tired. I am tired of thinking about food. I am tired of thinking about the food I can eat. Valentine's Day was hard. I wanted to eat a dozen cupcakes. But, I did not. I snuck one and I feel icky about it. It did not taste as wonderful as I imagined. Lesson learned.
Weigh in was a surprise = 209.9
I have not exercised in 2 weeks. I have a horrible cough that hurts and I wheeze a bit each time. I am exhausted each day and fall asleep by 9:30pm on the couch. I am feeling very old this week.
I tried a new wheat bread recipe. Blech! It was hard as a rock and no flavor. Back to my tried and true recipe tomorrow. David is so supportive and eager to find things that can work on the clean eating journey.
This week I promise to do some sort of exercise each day. Whether it is a walk outside or the treadmill. My eating must be more consistent. I have so many healthy choices available but nothing has tasted right or sounded good.
My calculations put me at down 17.1 lbs. I feel good about it. I do miss coffee and treats. I made some paleo chocolates and they are crap! They make my face break out and taste like sludge.
Here's to a better week with more activity, verve for my food and a better outlook.
Weigh in was a surprise = 209.9
I have not exercised in 2 weeks. I have a horrible cough that hurts and I wheeze a bit each time. I am exhausted each day and fall asleep by 9:30pm on the couch. I am feeling very old this week.
I tried a new wheat bread recipe. Blech! It was hard as a rock and no flavor. Back to my tried and true recipe tomorrow. David is so supportive and eager to find things that can work on the clean eating journey.
This week I promise to do some sort of exercise each day. Whether it is a walk outside or the treadmill. My eating must be more consistent. I have so many healthy choices available but nothing has tasted right or sounded good.
My calculations put me at down 17.1 lbs. I feel good about it. I do miss coffee and treats. I made some paleo chocolates and they are crap! They make my face break out and taste like sludge.
Here's to a better week with more activity, verve for my food and a better outlook.
Thursday, February 6, 2014
Weigh in day!
It has been a tough week. My husband had the flu, Nathan had the flu and Ben had a horrible cough. All had fevers and we were up all hours, sleeping in too late and eating off schedule. Even though......
2/6/2014 211.11
lost 2 lbs. 7 ounces. Not bad!
I know I forgot meals/snacks and did not drink as much water as I should have.
My husband goes back to work, the boys stay home from school with me today. I escaped for a bit last night to go grocery shopping. It felt good to get out but I felt confused and dopey. I had not been out of this house since Sunday evening.
I bought a bottle of Kevita last night at Vons. I loved the flavor, slightly sweet and spicy. I was expecting a bit more of a "cleanse". I loved it still the same.
Onward and upward!
2/6/2014 211.11
lost 2 lbs. 7 ounces. Not bad!
I know I forgot meals/snacks and did not drink as much water as I should have.
My husband goes back to work, the boys stay home from school with me today. I escaped for a bit last night to go grocery shopping. It felt good to get out but I felt confused and dopey. I had not been out of this house since Sunday evening.
I bought a bottle of Kevita last night at Vons. I loved the flavor, slightly sweet and spicy. I was expecting a bit more of a "cleanse". I loved it still the same.
Onward and upward!
Tuesday, February 4, 2014
Clean eating and taking care of a sick family
What day is it? I know it is night time but other than than.....not sure. I got sick last week. My husband starting getting sick Saturday night. Ben got sick Sunday morning. Nathan got sick Monday morning. It has been a wild ride of Gatorade, children's chewables and barf buckets.
I told my husband, "it is good we love each other so much and love being around each other so much, because we have been in sick-land going on 3 days".
I have stayed tough on my clean eating. However, I would give my left foot to guzzle a fruit punch Gatorade. Yet, I know after I have done that, I will feel poisoned and sad that I did it. That seems to be the frame of mind that is keeping the crap from being consumed on a daily basis. That is the only way I got thru Super Bowl Sunday.
Breakfast:
coconut milk, frozen berries, vanilla whey protein shake
snack:
Uncle Sams with ground flaxseed and whole milk - my favorite
lunch:
I slept thru lunch
snack:
Greek yogurt, granola and honey
dinner:
yuckiest omelet with salsa, black beans - seriously, yuckiest!
snack:
walnut and blood orange
Can I talk about how much I love blood oranges!!!! I discovered them at the Santa Monica Farmer's Market a few weeks ago. I have bought a 2.5lb bag each week since that day.
I weigh in on Thursday morning. I started my period on Saturday afternoon so it has been my first week since starting that I have had that going on. Drinking lots of water and green tea is helping with my period. In the past, my period has been very, very heavy and I have wanted to eat everything in sight. This time, I stayed tough. I did make a chocolate candy recipe (clean) just in case I needed something indulgent. I have eaten 2 pieces all week and that is all.
I am proud of myself. I am feeling a bit bored with the eating but having my tried-and-true staples helps. Hunker down and lets get this sick crap over with.....I have recipes to try and some shopping to do.
I told my husband, "it is good we love each other so much and love being around each other so much, because we have been in sick-land going on 3 days".
I have stayed tough on my clean eating. However, I would give my left foot to guzzle a fruit punch Gatorade. Yet, I know after I have done that, I will feel poisoned and sad that I did it. That seems to be the frame of mind that is keeping the crap from being consumed on a daily basis. That is the only way I got thru Super Bowl Sunday.
Breakfast:
coconut milk, frozen berries, vanilla whey protein shake
snack:
Uncle Sams with ground flaxseed and whole milk - my favorite
lunch:
I slept thru lunch
snack:
Greek yogurt, granola and honey
dinner:
yuckiest omelet with salsa, black beans - seriously, yuckiest!
snack:
walnut and blood orange
Can I talk about how much I love blood oranges!!!! I discovered them at the Santa Monica Farmer's Market a few weeks ago. I have bought a 2.5lb bag each week since that day.
I weigh in on Thursday morning. I started my period on Saturday afternoon so it has been my first week since starting that I have had that going on. Drinking lots of water and green tea is helping with my period. In the past, my period has been very, very heavy and I have wanted to eat everything in sight. This time, I stayed tough. I did make a chocolate candy recipe (clean) just in case I needed something indulgent. I have eaten 2 pieces all week and that is all.
I am proud of myself. I am feeling a bit bored with the eating but having my tried-and-true staples helps. Hunker down and lets get this sick crap over with.....I have recipes to try and some shopping to do.
Sunday, February 2, 2014
Super Bowl Sunday - Menu
Breakfast - single serving steel cut oats with 1/2 cup whole milk
Snack - greek yogurt with granola and honey
Lunch - slice homemade whole wheat bread, 2 slices turkey and 1/2 avocado
Snack - greek yogurt with granola and maple syrup
Snack - radishes and 4 tangerines
Dinner - turkey chili
There are (4) bowls of chili remaining. I have tons of options for the week. The lunch I had today is my favorite. Applegate turkey is awesome.
Remember how you are feeling right now. You are doing this and I am proud of you.
Started 225.7 on 1/1/2014
220.4 on 1/9
217.2 on 1/16
214.9 on 1/23
213.8 on 1/30 - started period 2/1 (makes sense now)
2/6
2/13
2/20
2/27
Snack - greek yogurt with granola and honey
Lunch - slice homemade whole wheat bread, 2 slices turkey and 1/2 avocado
Snack - greek yogurt with granola and maple syrup
Snack - radishes and 4 tangerines
Dinner - turkey chili
There are (4) bowls of chili remaining. I have tons of options for the week. The lunch I had today is my favorite. Applegate turkey is awesome.
Remember how you are feeling right now. You are doing this and I am proud of you.
Started 225.7 on 1/1/2014
220.4 on 1/9
217.2 on 1/16
214.9 on 1/23
213.8 on 1/30 - started period 2/1 (makes sense now)
2/6
2/13
2/20
2/27
212.5 - One month in and I know this eating clean thing is for me.
February 2, 2014
Super Bowl Sunday. Last year this day meant a free-for-all with my mother-in-laws homemade tacos, Spanish rice and all the junk food in sight. Those days are gone. Those days have been replaced with my new life.....eating clean.
Today was the first "obstacle day" since I began this new life on January 1st, 2014. Today was the first time I was around the bad stuff with people who ate a lot of the bad stuff. Don't get me wrong, the bad stuff is fun and yummy sometimes. However, I have learned something very important about myself in the past 33 days. I can't do just a little bit of the bad and yummy stuff. If I have one potato chip with onion dip, then I might as well have a bowl of chips with a side bowl of onion dip.
My husband, whom I love with every morsel of my being, is a bit like me. He has been eating very carefully and exercising very diligently for almost 2 1/2 years. He had learned all the stuff about himself and his habits long before it was my turn. He knows his downfalls and he knows the mind games we play with ourselves. Today was a "day off" for him and he had planned on it for a week knowing he would need the bad and yummy stuff to enjoy his 2nd Christmas, Super Bowl.
My boys, bless their sweet bad and yummy loving selves, love going to their Nana and Papa's house as they know it means lots of bad and yummy. 13 and 9 and not at all caring about what they eat....as young boys should.
I prepared for my day with volunteering to make an eating clean turkey chili recipe. I figured if I made it and I was the only one to eat it, oh well, it helped me and I looked good in the eyes of my in-laws. I prepared fresh vegies and fruits and made a homemade eating clean banana bread last night. I made myself a batch of green tea and took pistachio nuts in case I needed something else. It was also a birthday celebration day so cake and ice cream were going to be in the mix.
I did really well! I did amazingly well!! I never considered digging into the bag of Ruffles and plunging into the onion dip. I saw the brownies and chocolate chip cookies and I looked away. The Taki's looked at me and I snubbed them. The cake and ice cream pouted as I did not care about them. I did really well and it felt really good.
I have learned something important about myself. I can do this eating clean thing and not defeat myself. I can succeed at this and not look back at myself in a month and feel like a failure. I can do this because I never, ever want to return to my old ways. I am finally clean from head to toe. I only have clean in my pantry, fridge and drawers. I have taken so much time and effort to get to this point. I do not want to dirty myself by taking steps backward. I am a clean slate and all of my old transgressions are not visible. I feel good. I can see where I was and I can see that I was defeated by food. I can see where I want to be and I am excited
I want to blog this stuff so that I can see my progress. This is not for anyone else but me. The new me will want to see how this all began.
Super Bowl Sunday. Last year this day meant a free-for-all with my mother-in-laws homemade tacos, Spanish rice and all the junk food in sight. Those days are gone. Those days have been replaced with my new life.....eating clean.
Today was the first "obstacle day" since I began this new life on January 1st, 2014. Today was the first time I was around the bad stuff with people who ate a lot of the bad stuff. Don't get me wrong, the bad stuff is fun and yummy sometimes. However, I have learned something very important about myself in the past 33 days. I can't do just a little bit of the bad and yummy stuff. If I have one potato chip with onion dip, then I might as well have a bowl of chips with a side bowl of onion dip.
My husband, whom I love with every morsel of my being, is a bit like me. He has been eating very carefully and exercising very diligently for almost 2 1/2 years. He had learned all the stuff about himself and his habits long before it was my turn. He knows his downfalls and he knows the mind games we play with ourselves. Today was a "day off" for him and he had planned on it for a week knowing he would need the bad and yummy stuff to enjoy his 2nd Christmas, Super Bowl.
My boys, bless their sweet bad and yummy loving selves, love going to their Nana and Papa's house as they know it means lots of bad and yummy. 13 and 9 and not at all caring about what they eat....as young boys should.
I prepared for my day with volunteering to make an eating clean turkey chili recipe. I figured if I made it and I was the only one to eat it, oh well, it helped me and I looked good in the eyes of my in-laws. I prepared fresh vegies and fruits and made a homemade eating clean banana bread last night. I made myself a batch of green tea and took pistachio nuts in case I needed something else. It was also a birthday celebration day so cake and ice cream were going to be in the mix.
I did really well! I did amazingly well!! I never considered digging into the bag of Ruffles and plunging into the onion dip. I saw the brownies and chocolate chip cookies and I looked away. The Taki's looked at me and I snubbed them. The cake and ice cream pouted as I did not care about them. I did really well and it felt really good.
I have learned something important about myself. I can do this eating clean thing and not defeat myself. I can succeed at this and not look back at myself in a month and feel like a failure. I can do this because I never, ever want to return to my old ways. I am finally clean from head to toe. I only have clean in my pantry, fridge and drawers. I have taken so much time and effort to get to this point. I do not want to dirty myself by taking steps backward. I am a clean slate and all of my old transgressions are not visible. I feel good. I can see where I was and I can see that I was defeated by food. I can see where I want to be and I am excited
I want to blog this stuff so that I can see my progress. This is not for anyone else but me. The new me will want to see how this all began.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)