Started yesterday, March 30, 2014. It was more mild than the last which was more mild than the prior one. This time I am prepared. I went to WinCo (my favorite place for clean ingredients) and bought almonds and whole wheat flour. I made my clean bread last night. I stuck to the plan today and yesterday for the most part. I had a diet coke last night.....but, GOLLY it was yummy!
I know so much about myself from this clean eating plan. I know that when I miss a meal/snack I doom myself. I, literally, crash and burn and blow my whole day of good intentions with one missed meal/snack.
As I was typing, I realized my snack time had approached. So, I grabbed some almonds and a string cheese stick. Now, I am back to normal.
We went to LV 1 1/2 weeks ago. I had a hard time. I expected to eat clean the entire time. It was hard. I struggled and took a few days off. But, came back home and, for the most part, was right back on.
I am still hovering around 205.5. I am trying really hard for this weeks weigh-in.
Fingers crossed.
Monday, March 31, 2014
Tuesday, March 4, 2014
I need to learn how to not let my period ruin me.
I started yesterday. I was fine yesterday. I got up today and just knew I did not have it in me to clean eat today. I screwed off and ate like crap until dinner. Let's see.....I was like that hungry little caterpillar today.....
First I finished off an entire bag of Hawaiian Potato Chips with Mango and Habenero
Next, I finished off the bag of chocolate teddy grahams
Next, I opened the bag of sour jelly beans that I was saving for Easter baskets
Next, I ate a handful of left over Christmas candy cane kisses even tho they taste like crap
At least I this point I was intelligent enough to stop (only because I ate all of the crap in the house) and have almond butter with Akmak crackers
My period sabotages me in such a huge way. I did not feel guilty or bad. I was just this crazy-eyed maniac seeking out crap. Thank God I did not go in the garage and dig thru the back up stock. Ya, that would have been just too crazy.
Geez.
I have told myself I will NOT weigh in this week. I need a few days to be bloated and gross and feeling like the treadmill is satan. I will be back in good spirits by Thursday afternoon.
I have all of the food in this house that I need to clean eat. I just could not think of one thing that would have sustained my craze.
Tomorrow is a new day. I will be back to my sane self and I will move forward.
My goal: 200 by Vegas. March 20th, 2014. That will be HUGE!
First I finished off an entire bag of Hawaiian Potato Chips with Mango and Habenero
Next, I finished off the bag of chocolate teddy grahams
Next, I opened the bag of sour jelly beans that I was saving for Easter baskets
Next, I ate a handful of left over Christmas candy cane kisses even tho they taste like crap
At least I this point I was intelligent enough to stop (only because I ate all of the crap in the house) and have almond butter with Akmak crackers
My period sabotages me in such a huge way. I did not feel guilty or bad. I was just this crazy-eyed maniac seeking out crap. Thank God I did not go in the garage and dig thru the back up stock. Ya, that would have been just too crazy.
Geez.
I have told myself I will NOT weigh in this week. I need a few days to be bloated and gross and feeling like the treadmill is satan. I will be back in good spirits by Thursday afternoon.
I have all of the food in this house that I need to clean eat. I just could not think of one thing that would have sustained my craze.
Tomorrow is a new day. I will be back to my sane self and I will move forward.
My goal: 200 by Vegas. March 20th, 2014. That will be HUGE!
Saturday, March 1, 2014
One cheat meal in the books
Tonight we celebrated my husbands birthday with his side. I made a devils food cake with homemade chocolate buttercream frosting. It was amazing, aside from the fact that my oven died and I had to bake the cake in a neighbors oven that was not as good as my oven. Bit on the odd-shaped size.
Tonight was my first cheat meal. I was a bit nervous about it. My in-laws were making chicken mole and spanish rice with beans. Fat, additives, bad carbs, fat and a side of fat. I had a piece of chicken, a small spoonful of rice with the beans. It was good. But, it was not to-die-for good. I had been dreaming of this meal for 8 weeks and it was....okay. I did not eat too much. I did not eat a helping bigger than my regular portion. I was happy with that. The birthday cake was wonderful and I had a small tbsp. size of Neapolitan ice cream. Just perfect.
And, my first cheat meal is in the books.
I am excited to get back on the plan in the morning. I am really looking forward to my healthy food being back.
I am approaching 200 lbs. and I am really happy. I am so resolved to the fact that I must exercise once each day. I like the feeling I get when I am all finished. On Friday I did (6-7) 2-2 intervals. That is a huge increase for me. I say 6-7 because I can't remember if I did 6 or 7.
We are traveling to Las Vegas on March 20th-23rd. We will be staying at the Station Casino and eating the buffet a few times. I am trying to prepare myself for that time. I will be doing it exactly by the books until we leave. When I am on vacation I must allow myself to be off and yet stay diligent about portions. I think the casino has a fitness room and I plan on working out daily, if time allows.
I need to figure out how to make my new life fit into my life. I know that sounds weird, but it is true. I cannot worry about the interruptions in my steady ride. I must move with the flow and allow interruptions to not be roadblocks.
Tonight was my first cheat meal. I was a bit nervous about it. My in-laws were making chicken mole and spanish rice with beans. Fat, additives, bad carbs, fat and a side of fat. I had a piece of chicken, a small spoonful of rice with the beans. It was good. But, it was not to-die-for good. I had been dreaming of this meal for 8 weeks and it was....okay. I did not eat too much. I did not eat a helping bigger than my regular portion. I was happy with that. The birthday cake was wonderful and I had a small tbsp. size of Neapolitan ice cream. Just perfect.
And, my first cheat meal is in the books.
I am excited to get back on the plan in the morning. I am really looking forward to my healthy food being back.
I am approaching 200 lbs. and I am really happy. I am so resolved to the fact that I must exercise once each day. I like the feeling I get when I am all finished. On Friday I did (6-7) 2-2 intervals. That is a huge increase for me. I say 6-7 because I can't remember if I did 6 or 7.
We are traveling to Las Vegas on March 20th-23rd. We will be staying at the Station Casino and eating the buffet a few times. I am trying to prepare myself for that time. I will be doing it exactly by the books until we leave. When I am on vacation I must allow myself to be off and yet stay diligent about portions. I think the casino has a fitness room and I plan on working out daily, if time allows.
I need to figure out how to make my new life fit into my life. I know that sounds weird, but it is true. I cannot worry about the interruptions in my steady ride. I must move with the flow and allow interruptions to not be roadblocks.
Thursday, February 27, 2014
Period is approaching.....
Just realized my period is coming. I started 1/30 last month. So, March 2nd approximately this time. I cannot let it get me. I cannot let my mind think that I need crap when I am on my period.
Fight the urge to purge.
Fight the urge to purge.
Who would have thought!?!?!
So, you know all those people that say if you eat right and exercise consistently that you will lose weight? Ya, they were right. Bummer. The last 5 days I have eaten exactly by the rules and I have exercised my butt off every evening or morning on the treadmill. And.........I lost 3 lbs. this week!!!
2/27/2014 - 206.9 lbs.
I have a cheat meal coming up Saturday night. Me is a bit scared. But, Saturday breakfast and lunch I will be really behaved. But, Saturday night, I am having chicken mole and birthday cake. My meals are not big these days. I eat pretty small portions. I will behave but I will enjoy. I am most excited about the cake we are making for Dave's birthday. Chocolate cake with homemade chocolate buttercream frosting. Yum!
On the treadmill I have been doing 2-2 intervals of running-walking. I am up to 4 intervals. I don't like to run. I don't like my boobs bouncing all over the place. I don't like to sweat. I don't like it at all. But, I do it and it paid off this week. Dave mentioned, once the time change approaches, going out to the garage together to workout. I am hoping to be in a better way stamina-wise by then.
Today was the first day I felt the weightloss. As of today, I am down 20 lbs. Kind of amazing that it has been 2 months and it has been successful. I have never succeeded at this stuff. I usually start out strong and give up after 3 weeks. I usually give up when the initial weightloss tapers off. I can't do it this time. I must keep doing it and knowing that this is my new way of living.
Oh, and organic protein powder bites ass.
2/27/2014 - 206.9 lbs.
I have a cheat meal coming up Saturday night. Me is a bit scared. But, Saturday breakfast and lunch I will be really behaved. But, Saturday night, I am having chicken mole and birthday cake. My meals are not big these days. I eat pretty small portions. I will behave but I will enjoy. I am most excited about the cake we are making for Dave's birthday. Chocolate cake with homemade chocolate buttercream frosting. Yum!
On the treadmill I have been doing 2-2 intervals of running-walking. I am up to 4 intervals. I don't like to run. I don't like my boobs bouncing all over the place. I don't like to sweat. I don't like it at all. But, I do it and it paid off this week. Dave mentioned, once the time change approaches, going out to the garage together to workout. I am hoping to be in a better way stamina-wise by then.
Today was the first day I felt the weightloss. As of today, I am down 20 lbs. Kind of amazing that it has been 2 months and it has been successful. I have never succeeded at this stuff. I usually start out strong and give up after 3 weeks. I usually give up when the initial weightloss tapers off. I can't do it this time. I must keep doing it and knowing that this is my new way of living.
Oh, and organic protein powder bites ass.
Wednesday, February 19, 2014
Still discovering things about myself everyday
My days are long. My days are emotionally exhausting. My days are long. Blah, blah, blah. Everyone has long days. Everyone has things in their lives that deplete them daily. I am no different. I just can't let those things dictate the food I put in my mouth or the physical activity I perform or don't perform daily.
Exercise if the best thing for you when you are stressed or worried. Why can I not jump on that treadmill? What is preventing me from jumping on that treadmill and burning my fat off my body? Why? What am I afraid of? Well, I hate to sweat and I hate to huff and puff. So what?!?
Tomorrow, I vow to get my ass on that treadmill and walk/run/jog for 30 minutes.
Okay, over with that stuff.
I discovered Pichuberrys. Oh, my, goodness. They are amazing. Got them free with my Vons card. Best free fruit ever!
I weigh in in 1 day. I am a bit nervous this week. I feel bloaty and slow this week.
On Monday I made banana bread, whole wheat bread and granola. I love my granola. It tastes like oatmeal cookies. Yum.
Get your ass on that treadmill tomorrow. You will feel so much better after you have done it. M-W-F and a hike on the weekend. It is very doable.
Exercise if the best thing for you when you are stressed or worried. Why can I not jump on that treadmill? What is preventing me from jumping on that treadmill and burning my fat off my body? Why? What am I afraid of? Well, I hate to sweat and I hate to huff and puff. So what?!?
Tomorrow, I vow to get my ass on that treadmill and walk/run/jog for 30 minutes.
Okay, over with that stuff.
I discovered Pichuberrys. Oh, my, goodness. They are amazing. Got them free with my Vons card. Best free fruit ever!
I weigh in in 1 day. I am a bit nervous this week. I feel bloaty and slow this week.
On Monday I made banana bread, whole wheat bread and granola. I love my granola. It tastes like oatmeal cookies. Yum.
Get your ass on that treadmill tomorrow. You will feel so much better after you have done it. M-W-F and a hike on the weekend. It is very doable.
Saturday, February 15, 2014
Tough week
I am tired. I am tired of thinking about food. I am tired of thinking about the food I can eat. Valentine's Day was hard. I wanted to eat a dozen cupcakes. But, I did not. I snuck one and I feel icky about it. It did not taste as wonderful as I imagined. Lesson learned.
Weigh in was a surprise = 209.9
I have not exercised in 2 weeks. I have a horrible cough that hurts and I wheeze a bit each time. I am exhausted each day and fall asleep by 9:30pm on the couch. I am feeling very old this week.
I tried a new wheat bread recipe. Blech! It was hard as a rock and no flavor. Back to my tried and true recipe tomorrow. David is so supportive and eager to find things that can work on the clean eating journey.
This week I promise to do some sort of exercise each day. Whether it is a walk outside or the treadmill. My eating must be more consistent. I have so many healthy choices available but nothing has tasted right or sounded good.
My calculations put me at down 17.1 lbs. I feel good about it. I do miss coffee and treats. I made some paleo chocolates and they are crap! They make my face break out and taste like sludge.
Here's to a better week with more activity, verve for my food and a better outlook.
Weigh in was a surprise = 209.9
I have not exercised in 2 weeks. I have a horrible cough that hurts and I wheeze a bit each time. I am exhausted each day and fall asleep by 9:30pm on the couch. I am feeling very old this week.
I tried a new wheat bread recipe. Blech! It was hard as a rock and no flavor. Back to my tried and true recipe tomorrow. David is so supportive and eager to find things that can work on the clean eating journey.
This week I promise to do some sort of exercise each day. Whether it is a walk outside or the treadmill. My eating must be more consistent. I have so many healthy choices available but nothing has tasted right or sounded good.
My calculations put me at down 17.1 lbs. I feel good about it. I do miss coffee and treats. I made some paleo chocolates and they are crap! They make my face break out and taste like sludge.
Here's to a better week with more activity, verve for my food and a better outlook.
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